Time for Self Healing

Tuesday, January 29, 2013

I took a month off from having a crazy year. Wow, can I say it was so hard when I first tried it. I honestly was scared to have a quiet moment because I did not want to face the sadness I felt inside with loosing my Father. For some reason my mind and heart would not mach up. It was so much easier to stay busy from dusk to dusk again. Starting this book has helped me already by forcing to me have quiet time. The mediation, smiling from my liver...well makes me smile. Smiling brings endorphins .. .endorphins bring happy feelings. I can say I am now quiet in my soul...and I am ok. It did not come easily  but with much prayer, fasting and temple attendance. I can say I am so gratitude to my heavenly family for bringing peace to my soul and a smile on my face. It is time to get busy with life!!!

What are Your Waters of Mormon?

Sunday, January 27, 2013

Believing we can become more through Him...this is the key to becoming like Him.

We read in Mosiah 18 how the people came to know Christ and were baptized. The Waters of Mormon became so much more then just a place or location for baptism, but a place of heaven like qualities and opportunities. A place where deep motion and insight were felt, a place where one became their higher self. A place where one could know Christ  A time where one allowed Christ to make them more then what they could do on their own.

So the question to me is what were my Waters of Mormon? And what are yours?

My first thought...white butterflies....

I felt they were sent from Heaven

Butterflies in general are a symbol of transformation and change as well as joy and happiness. Sometimes I have a hard time understanding the symbolism being used in the parables but when I do get. I love how words don't explain the meaning of symbols to me, they are all encompassing: words, feelings, thoughts.

There was a time, I had had not felt worthy and was really hard on myself. I remember as I was pondering and walking the Dallas, temple grounds, I felt prompted to look down. There were these two angelic white butterflies. They fluttered from flower to flower, they were almost if I could hear singing, a happy tune. For that moment, I knew I was not alone. I knew without a doubt, I was worthy, loved and capable of much. There couldn't be a more perfect symbol of transformation.  Through Christ, I was worthy to be in God's house, to walk where God walks.

Another time, I remember I was in my room and I fell to my knees and began to pray fervently, pleading, crying unto the Lord to help protect my family. To later hear angels were surrounding me then, I was not alone.

The beautiful water fountain on the side of the Houston temple. Many beautiful summer nights, I sat pondering life and partaking in the spirit that dwelt there. One night I even got an unexpected answer with a serpent. God knows all, that is all I can say.

Walks on the beach. I think those moments are some of the closest times I have felt the Lord. There always life transforming. You and the moonlight and the crash of the waves. Gives me good goosebumps just thinking about it. Those moments are so refreshing , clear, and transcendental.

Setting time for Him

Wednesday, January 23, 2013

I like so many others have fallen short in making time for personal study, personal revelation  and personal mediation. I find when my life does not have a set structure my spiritual study can take the back burner. Not so good, so my goal is to find some structure at least first thing in the morning. What better way to start your day off then with your Father in heaven.

In my attempt to follow the advice of the book, (which makes sense) how can you get closer to Him, if you do not take the proper steps by first taking the time to converse and get to know Him. Oh, how I want to be close to Him, so when He speaks to me and it doesn't take Him three attempts to get my attention as did the people in the Americas when Christ first visited, in 3 Nephi 11. How appropriate was Sunday's church lesson, how to get to know God. How can we get closer to Him? Become like Him, study His words, time to ponder His principles, listen, and pray. These are just a few ideas.

The book suggests to open your scriptures, listen to hymns or find time to mediate after prayer. I personally have decided to listen to music on low either church related or classical as I ponder my day and read my scriptures. Can I say when I follow through, I feel so much lighter. My thoughts and mood change to place that brings me peace and confidence. Which goes along with a quote from Elder Neal Anderson, "With this commitment to who we can become, the spiritual doors swing open. There is new freedom to feel and to know, a freedom to become." And that is my hope, a freedom to become.

I keep pondering this particular section of the book. Mostly likely, it is do to the fact that I have not yet gained all that I needed. But maybe tonight, I can finally move on.

I was re-watching a movie that has become very inspirational at times with me, since I read the book, "Eat, Love and Pray." I would strongly recommend this book to everyone. The author takes you on her journey to find personal fulfillment.

Tonight, as I reacquainted myself with many of the quotes from the book, I knew a few of them were talking to me. So, I wanted to take this time, to bring them to my own fulfillment as I journey towards becoming closer to my Savior.

First, I thought how appropriate for this section to talk about mediation then none other to site a meditation quote. So with that, I would like to share this quote about medication. "To meditate only you must smile. Smile with your face, smile with your mind, and good energy will come to you and clean away dirty energy. Even smile with your liver."

I particularly love this quote because it talks about your liver. Why smile from your liver? Because your live is where you keep the emotions anger and resentment. So what better way to release those toxic emotions then to concentrate on making your liver smile. I have come to the conclusion as I crawl out of the bed in the morning how much more would I get out of my prayer session/mediation then to smile from my liver.

Your Worth It

I love how the book starts you off with a story about someone who took the time out of his busy life to help another in need. When the service act was finished and the one in need said, "thank you" the one giving service said, "your worth it!"

How can three little words be so Profound?

What is it that makes us stop and sometimes cringe when we think of our worth? Why is that we sell ourselves short at times? These are just of some the questions, that I have pondered in my life time.

It's time now to retract the negative outlook and push forward to new beginnings  God knows your worth and potential. Its time now to focus on his idea of worth of a soul.

New Year...New Focus

Sunday, January 6, 2013

The when and why...
I have decided to change directions on reaching my yearly goals this year. Instead of listing and checking off a specific goal (which sometimes were random or didn't connect with each other), I have decided to stick with one main theme. I feel this will allow me to make the necessary goals needed along the way that will in the end lead me to my ultimate focus of the year Loving like Christ at All Times.

I am very excited to take this path, I mean really excited, so excited that I even figured out the name of this blog last October. Yes, that is me always trying to plan ahead. I admit it was hard at times to focus on the goals that were at hand because I just wanted to jump forward.

So what lead me to this new path or direction...
“To lose balance sometimes for love is part of living a balanced,” by Elizabeth Gilbert. I learned a lot last year with helping care for my Dad. I learned how happy it made me feel to just leave the meaningless busyness in my life and just serve. I also learned and was able to witness the Love and Help that God extends to each and everyone of us. I saw how God loved my Father so much, he extended his life another year. How many of us get time? He was so loving, He allowed my Father time to get his life in order. He probably did that for me too. It has also strengthened my testimony, the importance of temple covenants, the importance of eternal families. How grateful for a loving God and a brother who literally died for me, so that I could not only come back to him but also so I can be with my Dad and other family members again some day. There is this quote my sister got on a condolence card that fits this beautifully. "While we are mourning the loss of our friend, others are rejoicing to meet him behind the veil," John Taylor. I am truly grateful a 1000 times plus to have witnessed these miracles this past year.
I have to admit, one time I think I even became cocky in my thinking (not good). I thought to myself this is easy taking care of my Dad, unlike my Mother who I watched face many challenges because of it. I was reminded in a blessing that God had surrounded me with ministering angels at all times. I have no words for the gratitude and the sorrowfulness I felt to think I was doing it all myself. To think He loved me so much that he lifted my load so much so...that I didn't feel stressed, sleep deprived, impatient, or selfish. How small I felt, but what a great lesson. God has the power and can and will take the heavier load from us. We just need to ask and live in a way to be able to receive his blessings.

The who...
So with that said, I know of no other way to thank my Father in heaven for his love for me then to extend his same love to those I come in contact with.

The how...
I have chosen to work on different areas of love and discipleship through each month of the year. As I was pondering how to do this, I felt inspired to head to the church bookstore. Another, gift am I grateful for a church bookstore twenty minuets away. I found this book called Becoming His by Emily Freeman.

She takes you on a twelve month journey to become closer to Christ. With this is mind, I thought the book would help give me a general outline on how about obtaining my goal to love like Christ at all times.

With that said, Happy New Year...
Please join me on my adventures, thoughts and insights on achieving my goal this year.